Last Band Concert

Last summer, when I had to decide on my classes for this year, I had to decide between marching band and concert band so that I could take honors english IV (which was required to graduate). Concert band is by far my favorite band, but I decided to take marching band because I knew that even if I wasn't in concert band, I could still participate in the concerts and performances. I told this plan to Mr. Fonville, but I guess he had other plans. He informed us just before concert band season that he would not allow us to play. It pretty much sucks. On Thursday, I attended what would have been my last concert as a member of the Ayden Grifton High School band. I had asked Mr. Fonville if I could perform with them, but he said they didn't have anything that I could do. It all really hurt my feelings. Band is really important to me, and the fact that I couldn't perform with my band and someone who isn't even a member of our band anymore got to guest star really made me emotional. Everything I saw, the stage, the chairs, the instruments, the audience, the director, all of this made me really sad. I really could not even bear to look at anyone. I was back stage talking to Puppies and I just couldn't take it. I started crying. Every thing was really hard for me to manage. I couldn't believe that I couldn't play. I haven't picked up my trombone in a while...I think there is something almost depressing about it. I love performing...I love music...I just have to have opportunities. Mr. Fonville told me that one thing that helped build his love for music was people providing opportunities for him....that is one thing I miss. Why can't I have the opportunity to perform? So, needless to say...my last band concert...that I didn't get to perform in...was very depressing.